celestine prophecy

god, that book is becoming a mind trip
today i saw a guy in the halloween store, he was in his EMT uniform
and his name was kenny
and here's where i think of that book
then think "should i say something to this guy"
but i don't know what on earth i'd say
"so, i'm reading this book that says there isn't such thing as a coincidence, that i'm supposed to meet you for a reason, to learn something."
i remained silent
then he came up to the register behind me, and he was going to be the same thing as i,
a pirate.
how peculiar
two kenny/keni's in medina being a pirate for halloween,
i should've said something to him,
i wonder what i was suppose to learn
maybe i should stop reading that book...

true story...

...every morning i wake up with so much optimism and love for mankind, and every night i go to bed loathing it, you'd think i'd learn....
apparently not

so today an older 'gentleman' orders a wrap with no onions, i put onions on it, go me
so he brings it back up and asks me to make another
which i gladly do
so after he's done eating it he comes up and says
"you know, the wrap was good, but the first one you brought me was SO much bigger than the second"
me: "oh, i'm sorry..."
him: "yeah, i mean, it was like half the size of the first one"
me: "oh, i'm sorry..."
him: "yeah, it was good but it was just SO much smaller"
me: "oh, i'm sorry"
(in my head: so do you really need to say this 500 times-like i didn't understand the first time?)
so as he's about to make his 4th attempt, i say well, SORRY ABOUT THAT
so instead he starts to make for the door
at which i say "YEAH, HAVE A NICE DAY BUDDY" and flipped him off

here's the kicker,
i didn't even make him a new sandwich i just picked out the onion and re-wrapped it
so the moral
that guy's a douche...
and i hate people

until i wake up tomorrow...

today is at a standstill,
life is at a standstill
winter only brings out the worst in everyone
and it's quickly approaching...
although the smell of pumpkins and dried leaves is uplifting on a long walk across town

november 2nd is fast on it's way...
it's beginning to make me nervous-what if the idiots take over the polls?
then were all screwed-AGAIN
people never learn...

maybe i should become a nihilist, so i wouldn't care about the whole thing...
too bad i DO care
probably too much...

tuesdays with channel 43

tuesday nights are indescribable
-street patrol
-jail
need i say more?

these people cannot be serious...
people can't really be that retarded--can they??
i wish i could believe they were paid actors

on another note,
i need to become my own boss
just so i don't get treated like crap
as if that's really too much to ask
but i guess it must be, since my boss seems to have a terribly hard time being a civil person--not just to me, but to anyone
it won't last much longer, either she changes, or my life does
the later is probably more tangible
kinda
maybe...

i'm moving tomorrow



i wish

the mitten

going home only made me realize how misunderstood i am here
being back with people who know me, sitting around, making stupid jokes, and laughing our asses off about it
i'll never find anyone as rad as my michigoobers

not to say that new friends aren't rad, but i'm not sure ohioioans really get my sense of humor at all
and the fact that i can go home, where everyone's seen me at my worse, and they still love me
nothing is better than that...

although, there are a few bad things about michigan:
*no chipolte near home
q'doba is a HORRIBLE chipotle ripoff
it's not even 1/4 as good
*and wtf 's up with pita pit still being closed?!
*everyone has to bring up afore mentioned "me at my worse" instead of letting it lie

i don't want to work at jimmy's tonight
or cool beans tomorrow morning
i want to win the lottery and spend the rest of my life hanging with people i love, and going on bike trips...

a day in the life...

serving hoity-toity, wanna-be high class society
(at the Taste of Medina)
--it's really something to be witnessed
me in black pants and a button up--
--it's really something to be witnessed

i've come to realize how bottom-barrell i am
and how okay with that i am

and after 13 hrs of beanerism today nothing's better than coming home, putting on my guy's boxer-briefs, laying on the floor with the cat, and listening to audio karate
suddenly i'm given my life back, even if it is only for a minute...
for i have to work again tomorrow...which i'm unprepared to exist at all tomorrow
except for once we get to michigan!!
then life will be good,
and i'm not sure i'll come back,
and if i do it'll be jim dragging me back--kicking and screaming and probably biting too...
i wouldn't be above it

i'm exhausted, my feet hurt, i'm whiny, and i need new music
someone recommend something
somehow 5746 songs just aren't enough for me...

thisisn'tmylife
thisisn'tmylife

defeated

oh life, you strike again!

so much madness in such a small coffee shop.
i blame the full moon--that's why everyone's crazy
that's why i'm out of my mind...

getting up and going-or i should say the lack thereof--it's getting me down...
i don't give a fuck where i go, i just want to be somewhere----anywhere

everyone complains about their boss--right??
why is my life reduced to a bake case, and doilies
that's right--fucking doilies--they consume me
haunting me in my sleep
mirrors, mirrors, doilies, mirrors...
it tyranical
tyranisaurical
or something like it

one day is pulled into twelve lifetimes
i'm not okay with the timebomb clicking inside of myself
i always find the loveliest ways to disappoint--

--like not putting cream cheese on a customer's bagel
it was the end of his world that we give cream cheese packs
instead of putting it on
so i put it on, and let him know he was an asshole
i hope he becomes a regular
b/c irony is just plain funny

chicken licken

so today's john lennon's birthday and...

the stock market is falling!
the stock market is falling!

everyone just needs to chill the fuck out...
i understand a lot of people have a lot invested in this, but if everyone freaks, they'll start pulling out, and things'll only get worse,
and besides that,
i'm sick of hearing about it...

i didn't vote that dumbass into office, i'm not responsible for how's he's raped america, and everyone stands by and lets him...
i said impeach him
i said don't vote for him AGAIN
so i don't want to hear how fucked we are for our decision in letting a douchebag be our commander in chief
and flush our country right down the shitter

it doesn't help that the republican party headquarters is in such close proximity to my work, i hear these douchebags coming in talking about how great mccain and palin are, and then the idiot i work with joins in their conversation, and i begin to wonder if we even live on the same planet
are they insane
or am i
with how things are looking lately
i'd say it's them...

dissent is the highest form of patriotism...
it means you actually care...

it's the tyra banks show!

i believe the tyra banks show is the most offensive show ever

i just can't believe what a blatant hypocrite she is!
today she has dominatrices on her show, only to tell them how bad it is to be doing what they are doing.
first of all, isn't she all woman power?
secondly, whatever happened to her whole thing on ANTM about being comfortable with our sexualtity.
thirdly, i find it unusual for someone who has done photos like this, and so many naked/half naked photos to judge someone else, such as a woman on her show today, for being a dominatrice...
especially since this woman doesn't even have sex with her clients, she just plays out their submissive fantasies...
tyra says it's wrong b/c she has children
my parents had children, and they still did freaky things behind closed doors, i'm sure
so what
we're humans...

i suppose i assumed that since she was so open about her own body, that she would also have an open mind, she's what gives models a bad rep....all beauty, no brains

AND
then there's a post right before she goes to commercial
"are you a gay male, or female, who wishes not to be anymore, call the tyra show..."
what, is she going to have a priest to pray out the gay???
that show is what's wrong society
well one of the MANY things wrong with society

enter: october

as of late

i am a pine needle in a pile of leaves
a whisper in a crowded room
a wet piece of coal

daydreams are really all that carry me, drifting through a dreary, sunspotted day...
and even they are waining

after some research, getting equipment to fill dreams wasn't disheartening, but i know looking for a location/building will be...vegan coffee house wishes.

information on the real world only brings me down, animal rights, politics...it's a never-ender of depressing facts
and then
enter: winter